错杂的心情。。。

今天，才发现自从上个星期五，
原来自己是多么地逃避他．．．
不敢去面对他．．．死咯．．．

而另一个人的离开，让我觉得，
世上真的会发生很多事．．．
真的，好难受．．．
就算是离开了，我也不应该和他吵架．．．
真的好讨厌自己．．．
现在慢慢地适应了．．．
可是还会觉得，自己不应该和他吵架．．．
对不起．．．
可是，我真的只是想关心你．．．
对不起．．．
我真的很想和你好好地说话．．．
已经四天不说话了．．．
也不回我的ｍａｓｓａｇｅ．．．

actually, i can't face him like usual....
y am i behaving like this since last friday??omg

something has happened b4...
it made me hate myself...
the other friend....he has left us from last week...
it made me felt tat the world is very changeful....
anything will happen on the next second....
really, i felt very mad,sad....
i should not arguy with him b4 he left from my side...
hate myself...
although i can adapt to the life without him...
but i still felt tat i should not arguy with him...
sorry, i was too worry about u...
sorry, i juz wanna talk with u peacefully...
we have became silent for 4 days already...
he din reply my sms at all...