Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Xx...上瘾的毒药...xX

这一年也过了
这份心情
似乎有增无减
喜欢你的心情
还是那么的浓厚
喜欢你的感觉
还是那么真实
说实在的
真的很像上瘾的毒药

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太多太多东西
真的不踏实

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Monday, December 2, 2013

Xx..大学有你真好...xX

在上大学的日子,
真的挺苦的
不敢相像迟一点,
会怎么样。

第一次出车祸
把最心疼的妹子弄伤了
觉得好伤心
好内疚
真的,第一个就想到你了
车祸一发生
“打给j"
除了你,我们真的没有一个共同认识的人了。
只有你,是我想依赖的人
没有想到
你真的会接电话
赶过来

告诉你们
我和妈妈吵架了
你把我酸了一顿
把我骂了一顿
虽然心觉得为啥你要这么说
总觉得你不了解
就说嗯,对啦,你说得对啦
可是心真的很别扭
觉得你不理解

当我们吃完晚餐
你送我回房间的路上
你提起
打电话
跟你妈妈说声对不起吧
我开始把心里所有的纠结都一一说遍
是怎样的你
让我把心里最深的秘密
一一告诉你

我把为什么我不喜欢妈妈的原因告诉你
我把为什么我讨厌哥哥的理由告诉你
我把为什么我爱爸爸的原因告诉你
我把为什么我疼妹妹的原因告诉你
好多好多的原因
好多好多的以前的自己
为什么讨厌现在的自己
为什么把自己陷入讨厌音乐
讨厌自己的原因
一一都说遍了
apartment stay, studio, proff, coursemates.....
我真的把所有的事情都告诉你了。
真的
真的是所有的事情了

是怎么样的你
让这样的我
拥有你这双耳朵
是怎么样的你
让我拥有这样的你
是怎么样的你
让我对你的制止了的喜欢
一下子又燃烧了起来
是怎么样的你
让我这么开心
是怎么样的你
把我的心解一一放下
是怎么样的你
让自己不要那么负面
是怎么样的你
让我自己看到自己的优点
是怎么样的你
让我看到
原来自己也有点用处
是怎么样的你
有资格被你鼓励
是怎么样的你
让这么别扭的我
遇到你这么好的senior
是怎么样的你
让我了解
不管人缘好不好
原来有故事的人
就是有故事的人
是怎么样的你
让我真的能够依赖你
是怎么样的你
让我把所有的自己
把最真实的自己
让你看见
是怎么样的你
让你看见自己
背负了那么多
处理了那么多
是怎么样的你
让你了解
为什么自己那么的没有用

我的人生
能遇到你
真的很好
我真的很喜欢你这样的senior
我真的很喜欢这样的你
有你真好

好喜欢好喜欢
这样的你
好喜欢好喜欢
你耐心的聆听
好喜欢好喜欢
你这样一眼望穿
好喜欢好喜欢
你这样的说
也许以后
真的有机会。
也许以后
我们没有机会
不管怎么样
我都会珍惜这样的你
因为
好人
都是这样





Saturday, November 9, 2013

Xx...初心...xX

原来好多事情,
展展转转还是回到了原点。

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Xx....当愧疚与工作交叉时...xX

当我想起你
我的心
都是满满的愧疚感
只因
我又把所有的责任推在你身上
决定了
booklet 由我全权负责
对不起
又是我的懦弱
我的不坚强
让你承担了那么多

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我总是回忆着好多我们的东西
喜欢你的这一年
看到了你的坚强
看到了你的好玩
看到了你的认真
被你骂过
被你酸过
被你鼓励过

你可知道
那一天
你的那一封在2点多
send过来的信息
apartment stay gud job
对我而言
真的是一个很大很大的鼓励
你知道吗

我不知道你知不知道

但是
真的像之前我留言给你的
apartment stay...
你真的是我的动力

虽然做的很糟糕
但是
我真的用过我的心思了

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没有看到你的车
我的心慌了
真的
那种慌了的心。。。
我真的只想看看你的车
看看最近的你

知道你很忙
想给你送咖啡?
想给你送些吃的?
不用吧
你不用这些吧?

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我真的
哭了

因为你那么的努力

而我呢?

我就浪费了我的时光
想回你的一切
就觉得自己
好没有用

对不起

我彻彻底底的
变成没用的人

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Thursday, October 24, 2013

Xx...the cruelty...xX

felt lonely and helpless.
what does it mean by 
this was ur option? 
and you nid to bare all the things 
just because it is a must.

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silently sit at the corner,
and listen to what they talk
the feeling
can ppl just help me to apply some medicine on my heart now?
i felt hurt
i felt helpless
i felt lonely
and i dislike this type of ppl to appear in my life.
i hate dis sort of situation
seriously,
do u think i m the one who wants to run this event?
seriously,
do u think it's my freedom to say no to the thing we dun want to do?
seriously,
do u think it's the matter should let a person who had sleepless night 
for everything,
especially the junior and the future thing?
do you really think all of the things?
do u really understand me?
I dun mind if i am going to bare all of the things
but thanks
to let me see ur true colour, 
especially that words.
why should i help?
and
you decided to join so many activities.

Thanks.
and i felt sorry to your family
to have this sort of selfish personalities in you
and nvr think from other's perspective 
BUT ONLY FOR YOURSELF>

seriously,
enough of this and thanks for hurting anyway.

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Apartment stay!
tml is apartment stay!
the feeling! the excited feeling and the feeling which it is going off soon!
that kind of feeling boosted me up! =D
we can settle it soon
o yay!

and no rain PLEASE!

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Xx...Apartment Stay?...grief...disappointment?...xX

Everything seems to be smooth while planning
but ppl doubted on the last thing.
we duno what are we going to face next
and we duno what ppl are going to comment

seriously we have our own reasons.

seriously

I am not the person who always self defending
I am not the person who always saying myself is correct
I am not an overconfident person

everything seems to be alright at first
and everything went wrong at last
The motivation
really
I need it

The feeling
we must do it.

do it the best i think.

=)

Thanks for my parents who supported me always.
Thanks for my team for tolerating me
Thanks for my senior who pointed out all of the mistakes

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Enough of emoing and crying
no more crying
tough.
and no more emotionally unstable

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Xx...喜欢的是...xX

Graduation finally ended...
=D
and he graduated and continued his part 2.
God bless for his studies in architecture.
My wishes are always at here boss =D

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The feeling of mine when looking the seniors graduated
while I was playing for Convo.
The feeling when I saw most of them walk up the stage
to receive the scroll. =D
Especially the HBPians.
I guessed mixed feeling was the only thing...
as happy in graduating, no more studio;
sad, cuz will nvr meet the friends and juniors,
mature, cuz going to see the society in real life.
If I was one of it, I guess, I will be crying.
The first thing,
will think of how I past thru every moment in these years.
The second thing,
How did I struggle for every single project when it comes to the situation
which u must choose one within jazz band, activities and studio work,
The third thing,
How did I survive in the third year under a very good lecturer...
So many sweet things to be remembered...
and so many things to struggle of.
You meet FACES in this mini society.
and also, you meet griefs...
however...
You are still proud of yourself cuz you did your best in these years
and you see relevance.
struggle for a best result and
STRIVE for the best! ALWAYS and it's a MUST!
I told myself starts from now onwards.
GOLD MEDAL and BOOK PRICE!
I nvr thought of it when I was in secondary school
but, I should tell this to myself now.

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昨天,看着你毕业,
昨天,陪着你拍照,
昨天,帮你提礼物,
昨天,和你们合照......
这些,都是我开心的回忆。
我很喜欢在你左右
帮你提着东西,
我很喜欢在你左右
看着你笑
我很喜欢在你左右
偷偷的看着你
我更喜欢,
跟你独处时
所说的一切。

现在是senior帮,以后是到你帮junior了。

这句话,
真的是一个动力。
走下去的理由。

谢谢你的一句话,
提醒了我那么多次
要撑下去
就算有太多的笑脸和黑脸要做
甚至白眼
也得撑下去。

好多好多话,
都不知怎么继续说
都不知怎么说
才可以把所有的喜欢
所有的理由
一一的比下去
很开心的说
你会回来!=D
开心哦!
我等你回来练习!

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我喜欢的是
和你在一起的时光
我喜欢的是
你那成熟的眼光
我喜欢的是
你那和朋友一起很疯狂的你
我喜欢的是
你那个眼神=)
你的一切,
都是我喜欢的事
不知道如果
我开始不喜欢你了
我的心
会怎么样

Friday, September 13, 2013

Xx...大二生活...xX

大二的生活,
真的是比自己想象的来得忙,
来得快,
来得无所适从。

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在这短短的期间,
做了什么?
感慨了什么?
真的好多好多,
在理大的两个星期
就像
两个月

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乐队篇

自卑的心理
一涌而出
这一涌,
看到了以前的自己
信心到底装满了多少

现在的我
什么都不是
吹也吹不好
自信心全无

可是,
我真的很庆幸,
我在乐队里
更加认识了
你们这一群
38婆
你们这一群
学兄姐
你们这一群
姐妹

我真的很希望
我们能够
在一起
为我们的演奏会
撑下去

想起在麦当劳吹水,
在1.1打打闹闹
在mamak档吹水。。。
喜欢和你们在一起,
把所有的事情说一遍

其实,
好多好多的事情,
让我想起
为什么我会把你当男神看待。

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学业篇

第一天,
功课加上书本
再加上
责任
突然间,
肩膀好沉
我可不喜欢这种感觉。
我不喜欢抱怨,
但是又不喜欢现在的科系

那份不平衡的感觉回来了。

我不喜欢在鬼早回的日子
不是学业上的问题
而是人事物的问题
要不是人事物,
也许现在的我
还是以前的我。

在开会的时候,
我开始去想有的没的
是我的问题
还是你的问题?
是我的问题
还是因为我不再在乎的问题?
是我的问题
还是不被信任的问题?
太多问题,
所以,
什么都不理会。
觉得他们都好奇怪
我只好沉默了。

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活动开始忙碌,
但是我不想没有生活。

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希望这个讲师的出现,
把我变形了

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我可以很冷静
也可以很疯癫。

好吧,
只限制于乐团里~

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Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Xx...假期的第七天xx心情...xX

今天,有点灰
见了米粉
见了灵达
心里豁达点
但是
我知道
我想你。

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Xx...the moment...xX

this happiness
deep inside my heart i noe.
*ily* to meet u though =)
hahaha.
dis is me. =)

nvr thought of meeting u at tat area
nvr thought of eating at the same restaurant with u though
nvr thought of too many things.

the joyness is just exploded *^v^*

It's missing time i guess, 
nearly 2am and definitely you are still awake 
and rushing ur project.
It sounds so stressed and I wanna to visit you right after my exam,
is it possible? =(
I really wanna to have a look on you.
Is just because you are bz enuf 
and I made myself not to disturb u anymore.

we see the map and visualize the world while studying history,
it made you curious what's world about. =)
so, what's ur next step?
here we go. the test== titas. omg.
it would be much better if it's not studied for the sake of passing the exam T^T

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Xx...midnight...sorrow....missing u deep inside my heart...xX

it's 2 now, ok,
normal time for both of us.
we nvr sleep that early as we know.
after taking glance on the status from fb,
started to try...
accompany you?
i mean
i made myself to study at this time as well.
=) cuz i noe,
u r still working very very hard...
inside studio or room
nvr let yourself to deserve a good sleep.
I think tat's y,
ur hardworking & seriousness made me believed that
you are charmful enuf.
i guess.
=)

it's kinda sad that i'm doing such silly thing by one sided only,
but,
the feeling deep inside my heart is just not bad.
=) i noe,
i'm missing u, thru my work.
but den
i wasted 1 hour to fb ='(
i guess you r not that type.

haha.
trying my best to change nowadays. =)
lesser fb i guess.
not addicted to it i guess
n lesser chit chat with ppl i guess?
hard.
but must try =)

*ucandoitialwaysbelievethis*


Xx...wishing u all the best...xX

I duno how to comfort you neither how to convince you,
but you have to take care of yourself.
I guess you skipped meal and had a few nightmares within this week
I do hope that I could help out,
but i think there is no way to let you to see me from your hectic life i guess.

*allthebesttouthoughyoumaynotabletohearmywish*

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Xx...regret?!...xX

I declared myself as Physics student and yet I couldn't score for this paper.
HOW STUPID AM I?

I'm now really feeling down and emo.
it's not bcuz merely of duno how to answer the questions
but also a lot of issues.

I blamed myself
that I could't b concentrate while studying
I angry myself
that I missed the one I shouldn;t
I was grief toward myself
that I did last minute work
I even looked down at myself.
I declare me myself as 5 subs students.
and where is the proud I had?

I just couldn't forgive myself.
I just can't
pls.

I nid to be a better girl.
I nid to
and it's a MUST
please, yun
this time, at least make ur 252 is a better subject to score?

pls, make urself back
proud girl
that nvr let ppl & challenges defeat u.
it's just surrounding =)

Xx...shouted....xX

in fact, the moment when anyone really nid encouragement,
we nid to give them
i found myself to b so coward to say out,
what i really want
and what i really wanted to be.
so many negative changes
that made me even couldn't recognize myself =(

sleepy.....
but haven finished studying.

Xx...missed again...xX

........
....................
..............................

can i just be silent and demand myself to meet u one day again in future?

i wonder when is the last day 

n last date 

n oso last time i met u.

studio?

which studio?

qs studio, 

with a unknown guitar. 

=( 
who noes.

i missed u.

ur saxo n guitar n oso piano.

.........

.................

............................

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

there are always some songs which motivate you and made you think of future.
<3 nbsp="" p="">i missed this song u played in accompaniment score.
n i visualize and immagine.
the time we can gather at the room and speak softly like a month ago
and tell u tonnes of stories.
which made me so emo
and can't come out at all.
=)
i missed u,
officially one.

theheartbelongstou

Xx.. shout out!...xX

i nid to shout out
i'm really demotivated now.
i nid to shout out as loud as possible.
i nid to yell
omg!
this is the very first time that i'm facing physics in such situation
nvr had dis sort of fear b4 and oso nvr had dis sort of mind b4.
i m so emo now!

haizs.
i nid more energizer.
i nid more motivation,
=) nvr min,
i still hv dis motivation,
songs.
haizs.
i nid more though.
greedy girl =P

dis is the moment that i noe it should be connected into sentences.
I'm tryin my best to convert the sentences into eng lel haha
indeed, i prefer mother tounge
hey people.
step out from your comfort zone.
it's a past now,
your comfort zone now is the demotivated state.
energize yourself at this moment,
study hard!

I need to be more hardworking today.
=)
fight spirit, on.
=D

To do list
1.) finish jotting down Dr C's note,
2.) finish jotting down Dr H's note
3.) finish jotting down Dr N's note.
within this morning, no more lazy.

afternoon
can b doing 2/3 den
do PYQ starts from 3/4pm

den night =)
discuss with ppl and memorize =)
go studio den. =)

all the best to myself.
把思念。化成努力的来源。
先休息,
再努力。

emotional boost up =P
stop crying & missing
start to study n focus =)
count down 42 hours for structure.

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k, stop strolling around,
and visualize urself as grace
haha
one day,
i will b like her?
mayb i guess

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Tuesday, June 11, 2013

刺痛

多么希望我是停留在你
心中的某个角落的过客,
而不是路人甲乙丙丁。

在这雨夜,
我又想你了。
我从来都没有告诉别人
自己多喜欢你

原来,
在他面前,
那么容易就露馅了。
对不起。
我的自私
我的天真
让我更加明白
我们不可能

对不起,
就这样让我静静的喜欢你
好吗?
就算不是静静,
就让我
远远的看着你
让我看看你的境况
让我stalk下你的profile
让我明白一下
你的存在
与我的对白。

心有点抽痛,
无法专心
真的想你了,
在这样的夜晚
我真的很想你
很想很想你。
因为,
你的存在,
让我明白
什么叫放开
什么叫人性,
什么叫喜欢
更加知道
什么叫痴心。

你的爱恨情仇,
我只有远远的看
我只有远远的欣赏。
我只有静悄悄的赏识
我只有安静的抽泣
我知道
我想你了。

很多事情,
好想告诉你。
很想去kacao你
但是
我没有勇气了

我只有远远的
看着你的单车
我只有静静的
看着你的离开

心,
刺痛。
原来这是喜欢的感觉。

Monday, June 10, 2013

Xx...就让我放肆的写吧...xX

N年没写长长的文章,
突然有点思念的说。

话说,
现在在考试,
别人在你死我活的读书,啃书,背书,
我却悠然自在的看部落,
上面子书。

哈哈,
没有救了!

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刚才看了一些人的部落
才发觉,
自己一直停留在某些地方,
没有走出来。

别人都在进步中,
然而我却在原地踏步?

别人变得开朗而我变得emo?

别人一直在向前冲
而我一直限制于自己的框框里
没有走出来?

我需要时间?

我不知道。

================


这一切原始与很多的纠结
原始与很多的心事
原始与很多不告诉别人的事情
更加原始与,
你不知道的事。

太多太多的原始,
终究不能结束这些落幕的泪水。
更加掩饰不了
这份痛苦。
这份煎熬
其实,
并不是什么大件事。
但是,
这一连串的chain reaction,
实在有点吃不消

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在大学里,
我变得压抑了。
很多东西,
不像以前这样
回想看看,
原来,
我以前的负面,
别人都不知道

把笑容挂在嘴上吧
从今天开始?

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其实不是我serious
只是我不擅长把笑容
放在我的脸上
这份不习惯
让我觉得笑容
好陌生。

因为,
这一切都不是我要的。
当不想笑得时候
就别笑
何苦勉强自己?
但是
别人却误导了
你的心境。

并不是你很压力
并不是你很紧张
只是
你觉得
笑容很虚伪的时候,
笑容是个工具的时候,
你就更加无奈
笑容是个必需品

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最近的我,
在乎别人的眼光,
最近的我,
在乎别人的想法
甚至
最近的我,
让自己甚至别人
更加摸不透自己。

别这样
别让所谓的事情难倒自己

没有人是完美的?
这借口
不好使。

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其实,
这个学期,
连我自己都看不起我自己。

怎么那么堕落?
怎么那么懒惰?
怎么那么悲哀?
怎么那么伤心?

很多东西赶last minute.
这不是我,
很多东西,
让自己那么狼狈
这个更加不是我
这么多东西,
该做的时候不做,
这个不是我。。。

这一切都变了。
这不是我

以前中六的我,
你可以回来吗?
你可以把那强迫症传染给我吗?

==============


如果我现在是
中五时的我,
加上中六时的我,
就好了。
不用加起来,
就算除二也好。

在乎功课。
也在乎课外活动的我。

把这个统一起来,
好吗?
拜托拜托
该醒来了
该做自己该做的本份了。
拜托。
起来了。

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忘了
一切
重新
再来

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现在都不努力的你不要指望以后会实现你的梦想 现在有机会都不学习的你没了机会可不要再后悔 现在落在人后的你不要觉得你不如别人 现在在人前的你可不要骄傲等几年后你再来看看 
千万别报有不切实际的想法来对待人生一点一滴都是要靠你自己 
现在的你不能再混再玩再懒惰了 前途很是重要 

朋友的一个status,骂醒了我。

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我不能再这样。
我要坚强。
我要survive!

Xx...失意时...xX

 世界上,很多人是过客,
但是有些人住在记忆里的房间,
有些人却离开了这个心房。

我只想把美好的,放在这个叫回忆的地方;
不完美的,落在心房某个角落,
失意时,把这些点点滴滴在复习一遍,
告诉自己要坚强。

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想你了。
真的。
这份喜欢,
就这样停留下去。
别让他再忘了。

看到你的status
都很想很冲动的按like
很想很想

很想很冲动的去studio看看你在吗

很想很想好好爱你。

很想告诉你,
你已经住在心里的某个角落。

很想告诉你,
我想你了。
很想告诉你,
我心动了。
更想告诉你,
很想见到你。

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但是,
我却知道
这叫一厢情愿。

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Friday, June 7, 2013

Xx...I wonder...xX

People like to comment and yell that they could not study in their home,
I just wonder,
am I a weirdo or what,
I felt more secure and felt more motivated to study.
=D

The feeling at home.
It's just simply warm and comfortable yet it's far apart.
Thx for the naive and easy going heart
which finally made me home.
I missed home and I found myself more steady
and also
I'm more focus while studyin
though it's still not progressive time,
but at least
I'm studying

The feeling
at home
is the best.


I just wonder,
why I prefer studying at home.
O ya.
cuz I missed home,
so much.
=D

Friday, May 31, 2013

Xx...emo...xX

I am so emo now but i duno y.
i think part of the reason is that i'm too tired
==========

There are too many things to consider and preperation works to be done.
omg,
I wonder how he did it
=(

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and i noe,
there's an empty slot to be filled in deep inside my mind.
=(
watch movie will get better i guess.

Monday, May 27, 2013

=)

=) i was forcing myself to smile for these days.
is this me, i doubted and wondered.
How come it ended up in such way?
It is not my ideal university life.
I do not want to learn this sort of things for my life.
i believed i still can live better without these.
but, we still have to accept though.
sometimes, i just couldn't accept the changes in a sudden,
this sem was a bz sem and it caused me to left out a lot of things in terms of studies.
omg.
no way!

i duno what was i and what m i doing in fact.
dis sort of feeling is awkward!

Saturday, May 25, 2013

=)

i like to use this sign recently,
i duno y,
i juz like it.
simple and comprehensive symbol.
=)
SMILE =)

Friday, May 24, 2013

Xx...勇气...xX

我知道,
爱你需要很大的勇气。
可是不知道这些勇气是哪里来的。

我知道,
思念需要很大的勇气。
这些勇气,
也不知道哪里来。

我知道,
要在你的左右,
也需要这个叫勇气的这码事。

不知道,
原来依赖你已经变成了习惯。
会怀念能够依赖你的日子
=)

我会想你。

Monday, May 20, 2013

Xx...There's sth...xX

It's in fact another day and another experience in my life.
I've been trying to burn midnight oil for these days and made myself too tired sometimes.
There were a lot of things happened and
made me myself couldn't believe in people somehow
but nvr lose hope, cuz some days, we will noe.

people told me, university,
 the place which compromises different type of ppl.
and i noe. tat's it.
so many diff type of peoples and these make me strong in my life.
ppl found I'm weird in terms of seriousness and no emotion sometime on my face.
but I noe it clearly,
i draw the line myself.
 to prevent others to hurt, the fragile heart.

but somehow, it's fail.
people still hv the way to find out the weakness deep inside my heart.
I wondered. n I found,
ppl commented i'm easy to be bullied.
k, i think tat's it.
ppl c that i duno how to reject,
ppl c how i respond,
ppl nvr c how my emotion change,
ppl nvr c why m i standing alone.

now i noe and realized.
b alone is nth.
b alone is juz another stage that shows others that u r becoming more and more mature.
=) smile, i told myself. it's ok to be alone.
it's ok to stay up late, fight for the assignment alone.
everything is ok. i dun mind. k?

Xx...realized...xX

it's kinda hard to explain it now,
i know it so clearly.
i wanna to shout it out,
tat i wanna to play music for my life.
no matter how weak m i,
i wanna to enjoy,
the thing which is known as music.
i wanna to tell ppl,
i love it.
tat's it!

=================

看着那部琴,
我想你了。
你几时会回来?
我知道你不会。
可是,
好希望你会。

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Xx......xX

这一种,
躺在心里的思念

Friday, May 17, 2013

Xx...欣赏...xX

当我一想起你,
我的心是有点向往,
有点自卑。
知道,
喜欢你的女生绝对多得数不清。
不仅是这样,
知道,
我在你心里的位置,
你绝对不会想起这个人。

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远远看着你就好了?
我自问。
心里真的有无限的惆怅。
我知道我喜欢上这样的你。
我知道,
你在心里已经是占据一个位置了。
而这个位置,
不是每个人都知道。
我也不希望别人知道。

======

我最亲爱的,
你过得怎么样?

Xx...多希望...xX

多希望昨天在那出现的是你。
发觉想见你的指数越来越高。
可是,
这一切都不是这样的。
喜欢这样的你。
思念这样的你。
爱上这样的你。

心,
抽痛。
下定决心,
要减肥!

哈哈。。。


Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Xx...开始思念...xX

当我看到你的单车,
我会恍然。
心里知道你会在哪,
理智却说不能去找你。

这种茫然。
无法用一言一语说出。
这种冲动。
这种压抑,
到底要几时才能被释放?

想到你要毕业了,
心里是纠着的。
想到你就算在这里,
我们仿佛是片天,是片地。
痛。
心里嚷着。

但是怎么说?

看到你这样强悍的面对所有事情,
真的觉得你很厉害,
听到你说我好欺负,
我心里总是会憋着憋着。
看到你的戒指,
我也学习穿戴戒指。
颈项戴着一个戒指。
时时刻刻都思念你。

最痛苦的不是不能在一起,
而是知道自己不可能有机会,
但是,
却心里还在思念你的一切。

看不见你的乐器,
看不见你的stand,
心里空了一下。

你的忠告时时刻刻都放在心里。


这一切,
都是你。

不得不承认,
喜欢上你了。


Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Xx...你给的回忆...xX

很快的,已经到了最后一天,
所谓的分离。
真的很不想和你分离。
想起你的一点一滴,
这些都是甜甜的。

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我会怀念有你在我旁边吹乐器的时光,
我会怀念你在旁边的时候,
lead着已经失去信心的我。
看到你冷静的样子,
我真的,
觉得你是我的依靠。
谢谢你一直以来,
一在的时候,
给与的教导与协助。
对不起,
自己这么的无用。

===========

我会怀念,
今天的我们,
拍了疯狂的照片。
因为,
我们真的很少机会,
在一起拍照。

=============

我会想念,
你今天在餐馆,
特地的慢慢吃,
就为了欺负我。
我真的会很怀念,
我真的会很想念。

=============

我会想念,
你对我说的,
喜欢朴素的女生
喜欢性格好
样子不错的女生
跟我分享了
其实女孩们都不知道的男孩想法。

=============

我会想念,
你在戏院买罐装水的时候,
说:我的戒指比你多一个,
你得听我的。
我会感动,
你发现我的项链。

我会想念,
你驾车的时候,
那时搞笑的话语,
以及你酷酷地驾车。
喜欢和你一起的时候,
看着你驾车。

我会想念,
你买的罐装水,
我会把他留起来,
作纪念。

我会想念,
你在戏院的时候,
时不时瞄着我的眼神。
那时的脸红心跳。
真的。

我会想念,
你说的,
你做的,
你在的,
你的态度,
你的想法。
我喜欢,
有主见,有让人想接近的魅力。

我喜欢。
这样的你。
有大男人的味道。

我喜欢,
这样的我们。
常常躲在你的后面,
可以很自然的“偷”你的钱包。
我喜欢,
走在你背后,
看你的背影。
我喜欢,
这样的你我。

我喜欢,
每当我遇到困难,
你可以帮助我。

我喜欢,
每当我有事情,
我可以畅怀的告诉你。
我喜欢,
这样的喜欢。

===================

我知道,
这只是,
我一个人的喜欢。

对,,,

一个人的

暗恋。

================

xihuannizheyangdeni


Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Xx...沉默?...xX

一瞬间,
要长大是不行的。
但是,
心灵上所承受的长大,
绝对和别人不一样。

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当上领导人,
这个位子,
真的不简单。
这个位子,
要承受的是
所谓的寂寞;
所谓的坚强;
所谓的难堪;
更加重要的是
所谓的面对。

======

从来都不要求理解,
但是,
这个一个人的路,
真的很累很累很累。

可以不要再一个人?
我常常想,
但是能够吗?
这绝对不能够的。

当你成为领导者的一瞬间,
你是永远的一个人。
那种感觉。。。。

很奇怪。
但是,
渐渐习惯。
正是因为怕寂寞,
所以要学会寂寞;
正是因为怕面对,
所以要学会面对。

城市生长的小孩,
就是懂得这个弱肉强食的世界。
我讨厌这样的自己。
我讨厌这样的天空,
我更讨厌面对自己不喜欢的东西,
却还要逞强说,
好,
我很喜欢。

请问我有机会做回我自己吗?
我累了。