Xx...frighten?...xX

wednesday night, i met sth weird n also scary which cause me could not sleep well for the entire night.

actually tat day i was supposedly studying about bio,

but i met sth , n i do not how to express it as well,

n i think it should not b described too.

juz try to warn those ppl who r having period to b careful.

anything can b happened.

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exam is going to start tml n yet,

everything has not been touched,

(touch in terms of study n revise)

no revision has been done,

no past year questions have been tackled,

no texts have been taken out to look thoroughly...

lol...

it means

going to fail again

nvr min

fail den fail lol!

i dun min~XD

kit will say: wat you said is not the same as wat you thought inside your heart,

ok...

wat he'd said was right,

i must confess tat,

i did want to strike the best.

striking 3.5?

it means,

all of the subjects at least get A-...

lol...

how far is the dream?

i do not noe n dare not to discover it.

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当思念从水龙头一涌而出，

什么东西都成型，

就连思念的形状，

都是真实的。

Xx..when a matter is keep repeating.....xX

like the tittle above,

when a matter is keep repeating day n night,

what would you like to comment bout it?

for me.

my answer would b merely a sentence,

not more than 5 words,

run away and avoid it.

this is wat i could say indeed.

lol!

it's very frustrated while i was facing failure though i've put my effort on it.

i noe, i did.

but not as much as others can.

i m not able to understand fast because of my weak language,

i m not able to read more also because of the stupid language barrier,

n i m not able to answer the question fluently,

is also becuz of the unacceptable reason for my class(i think)

sometimes,.

i did really wonder,

y m i pondering in the unfamiliar school compound?

i asked myself,

n keep repeating it daily

n remind myself the same thing everyday

"dun ever you dare to give up tat easily like a game!"

though i've tried hard,

but so how?

i didn't gt much

(though i gt some fr the bio which made me happy n kit feasted me a vitagen becuz of it XD~)

i noe myself very well.

i've been looked down....

by those ppl.

those unfriendly environment.

not only the classmates.

but also teachers....

i would like to run away.

if i had given a chance to do so.

sometimes, lies surrounded me.

in order to achieve some strength...

but, it's useless when the hope becomes fade.

i m so sad tat wish the game can b ended soon n let myself to own a good rest.

i dun even dare to face the results by this time for the next year.

it's tired,

when ppl getting tired n have no spirit to continue wat they should finish in their life.

n i m seriously demand a rest without thinking much.

i wished tat i've been bestowed to own a brilliant brain,

n it will relieve the tension for now.

everything during future is depending on your cert!

especially the results inside!

it makes me feel cold n uncertain when these phrases keep voicing out through my brain...

it's so scary tat made me fade up n nearly to give up

if

let say if, ok?

it's gud

if, i can leave the world without facing the difficulties which i dun dare to face.

no matter is muet or stpm,

they r leading the strand.

either a bright or a dark strand of mine.

it's gud,

if i m fortunate enuf to strike gcpa 3.

if not, wat will happen?

i'm not willing to think bout it though i m working hard to prevent it happened in my life.

everything is not as simple as ABC...

i'm scare to say tat,

i'm not brave enuf to face it

i hate to face reality.

but,

i still nid to force myself to stand firm

for the fame

n also the future.

so scare tat,

everything is wasted.

i missed the secondary school life,

without much burden as now.

y m i changing the school instead of staying the best place i've ever met b4?

if you asked this earlier,

mayb,

i will give a firm ans for you.

but now,

i'll say

i duno...cuz i m running away.

kiss the rain, again.

i nid sb's shoulder.

n sleep.

Whenever I step into the garden, every moment in my childhood appears in my mind. Everything in the garden is connected with every second I in the last decade. I was the little princess in this garden, as I had the right to do everything I like, for instance: built a sand castle with the sand beneath the rambutan trees, played on a swing in the sweet garden, fooled around with the pets which my grandmother possessed and so on. Every scene seems memorable and nostalgic.

I was a simple minded and imaginative girl. I used to create new thing daily to surprise my parents and grandparents. I like to laugh and happiness seems an easy thing to get from a simple matter. It is totally different if compared the life after a decade. In this moment, there are no much reasons to let myself to laugh or happy with. Although everyone still can live happily now, it seems to be quite hard to grab as compared with the childhood I have experienced before. Lastly, happiness was just as simple as ABC or one plus one we had learnt during the primary school when we were in childhood but not for a gradually growing up children.

Everything is not as simple as a child’s life after growing up gradually. It is complicated and you have to take the responsibility when you had done something wrongly. Unlike a child, though you had made any mistake, adults would just have nagged and reminded you not to repeat the mistake, everything would be settled after a smile from you as you are the queen for the whole family. You are always forgiven for any matter but not as teenager in a school or an adult in the society nowadays. You have to face the music after causing some unpredicted consequences although the mistake is not done by you. It is innocent to listen to, but this is life, whenever something happened, someone has to come out and take over the burden.

Though it pains, joy is still can be found after growing up. When you are growing up, you learnt more complicated things that you might wanted to know since you were a little girl or boy such as photosynthesis of the plant, algebra and Newton’s law. Everything is learnt through the education in school which you would never have a chance to explore and gain the knowledge in a child’s world as it is too complicated and difficult. You have no opportunity to learn these during childhood as you are sentenced that you will never understand this.

Other than that, you have the chance to widen your social circle by knowing new friends in the school and you would have the opportunity to meet true friends who can share everything together in your life. You may share the happiness or sadness you experienced and met in your life. True friends will help you while you were facing any difficulties by proposing or suggesting a good solution to overcome the problem. In such situation, it can be considered as a happy reason after growing up.

While human beings were growing up daily, their mind is becoming more mature than the day before as they gained new experience from it. Growing up is a necessity and unavoidable event for each life. Hence, face it bravely and you will have a good live when you grab a firm principle in your life. Principle will prolong and enlighten your life whenever you have met any plight as you will overcome it. Lastly, I would like to end up by advising everyone that, let us growing up happily with a positive mental attitude.