Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Xx...逃避...xX

今天,又去上乐队了
剩下24天!
。。。
不知道他们怎么想的。。。
唉。。。

失望的心情一拥而上
久久不去
。。。

不是久久。。。
而是一道伤疤又在我的心上了
。。。
一下这个
一下那个。。。
真的很。。。

唉。。。
我很累。。。
可是想睡根本睡不好。。。
讨厌的。。。
因为我的头脑。。。
不能专心做我的东西

我要弄好钢琴考试
可是。。。
唉。。。
那种心情
也没有什么人懂。。。
...
应该说没有人明白...
唉...
很讨厌的
也许你说
我有时间不如练琴...
静静的...
这就是我的答案
我不想说...
我最好什么都不要说...
...

Monday, June 1, 2009

我越来越讨厌你了!!!!
为什么。。。
我们真的没有理由那么接近??
。。。
宁愿什么都告诉朋友
都不告诉我?
我也有妒忌的时候列。。。
为什么你要弄到我。。。
那么无可药救的。。。
再度喜欢上你?
。。。
我讨厌啦。。。

Xx...carpenters...xX

lyrics from:
superstar- carpenters

Long ago and oh so far away
I fell in love with you before the second show
Your guitar, it sounds so sweet and clear
But you're not really here
It's just the radio

[Chorus:]
Don't you remember you told me you loved me baby
You said you'd be coming back this way again baby
Baby, baby, baby, baby, oh, baby, I love you I really do

Loneliness is a such a sad affair
And I can hardly wait to be with you again
What to say to make you come again
Come back to me again
And play your sad guitar


a very nice n sad song...
for band arrangement
solo for trombone...
yaya!
nice!
haha
the lyrics really do tell everyone my feelings now...
toward someone
missed him lot
depressed???
tat's an unknown for me...

Sunday, May 31, 2009

100 truths

MY 100 TRUTHS
WHAT WAS YOUR :
1. Last beverage: plain water
2. Last phone call: mummy
3. Last text message: winnie
4. Last song you listened to: loch lomond
5. Last time you cried: last thursday
6. Dated someone twice: NO EVER!
7. Been cheated on: No
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: no
9. Lost someone special: yes,dear jia wern~
10. Been depressed: ....uncountable
11. Been drunk and threw up: no
LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLORS :
12. pale purple
13. black
14. sky blue
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU (2009)
15. Made a new friend: gt~let me think, all my junior
16. Fallen out of love: mayb
17. Laughed until you cried: yes
18. Met someone who changed you: no
19. Found out who your true friends were:no
20. Found out someone was talking about you: erm, duno
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: gt~muakz jia yi, eunice n dada~
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: erm...uncountable
23. How many kids do you want?: duno~
24. Do you have any pets: sure!no~
25. Do you want to change your name: erm...
26. What did you do for your last birthday: cried becuz of election of band
27. What time did you wake up today: 5.30am
28. What were you doing at midnight: sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: go to learn how to drive><
30. Last time you saw your Mother: last night,9pm
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i want to b a very perfect person
32. What are you listening to right now : loch lomond
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: band's concert,piano exam
35. Most visited webpage: blogspot
36. Whats your real name: Tan Bao Yun
37. Nicknames: abolone
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac sign: cancer
40. Male or female?: female
41. Primary School?:SJK (C) Yu Hua, KAJANG
42. Secondary School?: SMJK YU HUA, Kajang
43. High school/college/university? erm...ucsi
44. Hair colour: black~
45. Long or short: nt very short bt not long also~
46. Height: 161cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yes
48: What do you like about yourself?: love to help others
49. Piercings: 2 earrings
51. Righty or lefty: righty
FIRST :
52. First surgery: 盲肠炎
53. First piercing: 13 years old
54. First best friend :
55. First sport you joined: swimming
56. First vacation: Singapore
58. First pair of trainers: -
RIGHT NOW :
59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: pure water
61. I'm about to: watching tv
62. Listening to: loch lomond
63. Waiting on: tuition
YOUR FUTURE :
64. What kids?: duno~
65. Get Married?: no~
66. Career?: duno~
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: lips
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: shorter
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms~
73. Sensitive or loud: duno~
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationships
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: both r bad
HAVE YOU EVER
76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: yea
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes
79. Sex on first date: no
80. Broken someone's heart: yea
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: -
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: sometimes
87. Miracles: yes,during concert
88. Love at first sight: yes
89. Heaven: duno~
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date: no
92. Angels: yes
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today?: yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: yea, i guess everybody did tis
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: i want to become baby one more time
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: 121208,we r one concert
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes~
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: erm....

Xx...杂乱...xX

流泪,真的不需要什么理由??
不懂耶...
昨夜,
回到了家
想到很多很多东西

其实我满脑子...
就只是...

唉...
左想右想...
都是他远远的影子...

不不不不!!!
不止是为了他
其实我也是在烦乐队很多东西
嗯!
对!
我也很烦乐队的事!!
嗯!
乐队还剩不到30天来练习!
然后呢,
大家练习的进度不够
宣传还没有开始!
嗯!
很令人担心!

....
想完了乐队还是他
他真的是大笨蛋!!!
为什么他不知道我怎么想啊???
啊啊啊啊!!!

xx...
如果有一天你知道了,
你还会对我那么冷落吗??
我不懂
只是知道我们的0距离变成了
100公里的距离
我不想看到你
因为你的距离太远了
你也从来不会明白...
我在想什么
毕竟不同世界的人是会产生错觉的
我不否认,
曾经幻想跟你在一起的情景
笨蛋!!
你为什么什么都不知道???

....
就算他知道了
又能怎样
他不会知道...
我静静地等他
他不会知道