Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Xx我只想和你们在一起了解生存的意义xX

空虚的夜晚,寻找的不是明亮的星星,
也不是皎明的月空。
而是我们在一起的每一天。
不管是白天,
还是夜晚。

对,
我们在一起度过的每一个时光,
都是我们最原始的写照。
不仅仅是酸甜苦辣,
还包涵着满满的爱恨情仇,
而这份心情,
不是复杂的爱情元素,
而是一个家,
拥有的原始感情。
说实在的,
我真的很想一直抱着你们,
赖在你们的怀里不走,
但是,
对不起,
这个世界的现实让我离开了你们,
我放弃了原有的浪漫。

我知道,
我不仅仅喜欢的是我们一起玩奏的音乐,
我喜爱的,
依然是我最原始的个性,
那份喜欢挑战自我,
不畏强权,
理性不减的自己。
只有和你们在一起,
我才是我。

虽然我是大家的小丑,
但是我并不抗拒成为大家的小丑。
因为,
小丑带来的欢乐,
是发自内心的。
然而,
乐队的小丑走了,
去到了一个陌生,
寂寞难耐的日子,
小丑也失去了欢笑,
失去了灿烂的笑容,
因为他看见的不是往常的愉悦,
而是为将来的担心的煎熬。

多少人,
能够通过这份煎熬,
让自己撑下去?
尤其是当你每一科都亮起了红灯。
我喜欢对自己说,
我想你们,
我会为了你们加油的。

可是,
一个人,
有时撑不下那么多的压力,
我只想大哭一场,
我只想逃离这个讨人厌的城市。

算了,
命运的安排。
我不违背天意,
只有走下去了。

我只能通过音乐回忆起我们的快乐,
通过天空提醒我们依然存在,
通过承诺努力走下去。

Xx...244 more days to go...xX

it's menaced figure which can stress all of us during our school time.
i do really mention bout this to myself everyday.
n wat i've been keep repeating is,
if you r not hardworking enuf
you will b kicked out from the gate of the public universities.
The identical things were repeated n revolved for unlimited times.,
but
it seems tat i m more demotivated instead of doing better and better.
what happened to me?
i'm so curious bout it.
haizs.
i like everything tat i learn now,
but i dun like to b tested.

i've been provocated by the numerous paper every single day.
keep telling myself tat
you r weak.
actually i noe,
i've some intelligence inside my brain,
but it's not linkable for the academics.
it's more on artistic stuff,
i think.

cuz, whenever i'm studying sn or maths,
wat came from my mind was
music
the band music.
i was surprised when i discovered i was humming the seventh night of july during today's bio class.
lol.

stressful life,
n no way to run but to continue only.

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it's so sad when i discovered our boundary is juz at friend but not more than tat.