Xx...3?...xX

it's depressed when i was staring on the marks given.
oh, felt tat, i do really deserve the marks.
n also everything tat the teachers criticized.
aizs...
sad for the marks n band.
but satisfied for the effort b4 i think.
without the effort which has done for previous day,
i feel tat it's impossible to get band 3 too....
(thought it personally...)

so, wat i should do now?
listen, speak, write n read more!
i think these are the things which i can do now.
so, anyone join me?
XD~this is for sure to those yu hua fren^^
let's add oil together bah~

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我知道，我心里还是喜欢着这个叫华文的语言。
要我脱离，
根本不可能吧。
这个3，意识着我需要与华文说再见一阵子。
唉，悔不当初？
可能吧？
可是，就像大多友人所说的，
没有时间忏悔，
只有让自己开始赶头迎上。
要加油，但是没有油好加？

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a quick summary for this week is here~
Sunday:
2.1.11
i was hurrying for my hw==

Monday
3.1.11
school reopened...
i was like...
haizs! the most stressful day tat i ever met.
every teacher was...
keep reminding us to do more revision...
must do this or that,
it made me frustrated indeed.
if can, i would like to run away fr here.
though everyone was asking me not to run more fr the reality frequently.
opps.
made me stress==
neglect those minor minor thing
==

Tuesday
4.1.11
it was the horrible day as i could not do any question of the chem small test...
haha, i din do any revision at all~
haha, i juz feel tat,
bb stpm, i'm goin to fail it!
==
n i found sth interesting.
my dad n his sibling's notes n textbooks are found in one of my house cupboard!
i was like very excited n grateful as they hv left sth precious tat i think it will help me after some days.
i nid them to improve myself through the books.
mayb they left sth important notes n knowledge.

Wednesday...
5.1.11
i think, i'vw overslept tat day as i was forcing myself to do my hw until 4.30.
oh no!
i was unable to finish it though i did do my best to finish it!
haizs, i was nearly caught by my bio teacher tat i din finish my hw at all==
i was not lazy...
aizs...
den, i went to shopping center wif my dad.
*to buy my mum's birthday present*
hehe~i like the bag
n i gt some information today..
*my mum does not like it....sad.T.T

6.1.11
Thursday
the saddest day tat i ever met after 2011 started...
MUET result is coming out today n yet.
i noe it very well.
i will deserve a bad band.
though i noe it will b bad, it's getting worst as tat day i m nt in the spirit to do anything,
especially for my exp.
den...
i was...
aizs...
i felt tat sad bcuz of the conversation wif a teacher.
who i respect the most among my sub teachers...
but, the only hapi thing was...
kin kit n me went home together.
it's such a way to release the sadness n nervousness through talking wif him
he din console me,
but juz ask me to study harder for next time.
haizs...
i noe...
but how?
stress button is switched on AGAIN!
crying for the entire night tat day....

7.1.11
Friday
i felt tat, i m happy.
after conversation wif my muet tuition gang.
wif them,
at least, tension is nt needed.
for me.
i love to b wif them.
it's like reunion wif old frens.
thx, guys, feel better after talking wif u all.
n also mr seelan.
appreciation is specially for you!
thx for consoling me....
i'll strive the 4 or 5 in future!

8.1.11
my mum birthday.
n yet, no celebration.
she is at penang now.
k~tat's for this week~

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