Xx..when a matter is keep repeating.....xX

like the tittle above,

when a matter is keep repeating day n night,

what would you like to comment bout it?

for me.

my answer would b merely a sentence,

not more than 5 words,

run away and avoid it.

this is wat i could say indeed.

lol!

it's very frustrated while i was facing failure though i've put my effort on it.

i noe, i did.

but not as much as others can.

i m not able to understand fast because of my weak language,

i m not able to read more also because of the stupid language barrier,

n i m not able to answer the question fluently,

is also becuz of the unacceptable reason for my class(i think)

sometimes,.

i did really wonder,

y m i pondering in the unfamiliar school compound?

i asked myself,

n keep repeating it daily

n remind myself the same thing everyday

"dun ever you dare to give up tat easily like a game!"

though i've tried hard,

but so how?

i didn't gt much

(though i gt some fr the bio which made me happy n kit feasted me a vitagen becuz of it XD~)

i noe myself very well.

i've been looked down....

by those ppl.

those unfriendly environment.

not only the classmates.

but also teachers....

i would like to run away.

if i had given a chance to do so.

sometimes, lies surrounded me.

in order to achieve some strength...

but, it's useless when the hope becomes fade.

i m so sad tat wish the game can b ended soon n let myself to own a good rest.

i dun even dare to face the results by this time for the next year.

it's tired,

when ppl getting tired n have no spirit to continue wat they should finish in their life.

n i m seriously demand a rest without thinking much.

i wished tat i've been bestowed to own a brilliant brain,

n it will relieve the tension for now.

everything during future is depending on your cert!

especially the results inside!

it makes me feel cold n uncertain when these phrases keep voicing out through my brain...

it's so scary tat made me fade up n nearly to give up

if

let say if, ok?

it's gud

if, i can leave the world without facing the difficulties which i dun dare to face.

no matter is muet or stpm,

they r leading the strand.

either a bright or a dark strand of mine.

it's gud,

if i m fortunate enuf to strike gcpa 3.

if not, wat will happen?

i'm not willing to think bout it though i m working hard to prevent it happened in my life.

everything is not as simple as ABC...

i'm scare to say tat,

i'm not brave enuf to face it

i hate to face reality.

but,

i still nid to force myself to stand firm

for the fame

n also the future.

so scare tat,

everything is wasted.

i missed the secondary school life,

without much burden as now.

y m i changing the school instead of staying the best place i've ever met b4?

if you asked this earlier,

mayb,

i will give a firm ans for you.

but now,

i'll say

i duno...cuz i m running away.

kiss the rain, again.

i nid sb's shoulder.

n sleep.