Xx...clarinet Vs Alto sax...xX

i juz confronted...
sth like....
maze i think.
when i play clarinet...
i really hope tat i could play sax once again.
it's too fast to let me touch clarinet
could nt addapt this situation.
somehow...
i realised tat,
i'm damn love in saxophone
i couldn't let it go easily...
but, since...
there is no any instrument left.
i should change to clarinet
but, if i could choose
i would choose sax....
instead of clarinet
those fingering was too hard for me
those air requirement is too difficult for me.
haiz....
i nid more time...
do i hv any more time???
2 years...
is it enuf???
no....it is nt enuf at all...
i couldn't catch up now
i nid more spaces...
i nid more time
i nid more freedom....

有一瞬间明白，
这一切，
真的不一样了。
因为，就是不一样了

我，
喘气，
呼气
才发觉
我在原地踏步

我，会回忆