Xx...stop the nonsense...xX

I hate to b a toy of ppl.
it is such a shame,
i ws like a ball,
being thrown around without a specific direction.

it is such an unstable life,
when a ball is always being thrown,
it will neither
given a chance to let it calm down nor
have a secure step for it's future.
can i hv my rite to choose tat nt being a ball??

haiz,such a dark life.
for nowadays.
i've juz asked a chance to hv a brighter way to go,
but why?
they put in me to a such torching circumstance?

if i hv the chance,
i will grab wat i nid,
but nw, it is depend.
depend to those "ruler"
i hate those "ruler!"

i hope to hv a peaceful and safe line to go.
i hate to say these,
but please,
dun ever let me hv a hope b4 u guys made diccisions....!